I’ve already received a comment to my most recent post. Let it be known that I welcome all comments, as long as they have something to contribute.
Anyways, the part of the comment that stuck out the most for me was this: “Can you see how this situation is moving further and futher away from Islam?”
I may be being naive, but I think that this whole situation has helped me sort out how I really feel about religion and general, and more specifically, how I feel about Islam. I personally believe that no religion is perfect because they are applied and practiced by man – and humankind in general are not without sin (meaning no one is perfect). There is a lot going on in Islam right now that I do not agree with, and I think that with the ways things are in the global arena, we are more able to see how peope are misusing Islam on a much wider scale.
Anyways, I honestly believe that if I was a true devout “religious” muslim, I wouldn’t have ended up in the situation that I am currently in. In fact, Ivan and I joke about how we wouldn’t be with each other if either of us was very religious. I mean, how many strict Orthodox Jews do you see running off with shiksas?
I hate to say it, but I think one reason that I don’t have the “conviction” that others have is because I never chose to be Muslim. I don’t mean that in a way like “I never chose to be born,” but rather, my parents made a conscious decision to be Muslim. For my siblings and I, Islam was the status quo.
This may or may not make sense, but don’t flame me!
i understand what you mean, but now that you realize that you never consciously “chose” Islam, maybe you can do that now? perhaps now is the time for you to study your religion, or rather give yourself the opportunity to actually believe that Allah exists and that the Quran is his word. Unless you have actually come to believe that yourself you’re going to be stuck in limbo (trust me, I know). Once you have that faith, that thought that will always stay with you in the back of your mind that “Allah is One, He exists and the Quran is His word” you’re probably going to rethink everything you do, everything you believe in, everything you thought you valued and everything you thought you wanted out of life. My sister is in your shoes sort of. Shes in love with this non muslim guy who has converted to Islam, but only for the sake of marrying her. Its just the same with her, she probably wouldn’t have gotten into the situation she is in if she was more strong in her faith, if she actually ‘believed’ with all her heart and soul, and I don’t think we have to label that ‘religious’ or ‘irrelegious’ or whatever. She never actually studied Islam or appreciated it for what it really is and thats why I believe she herself is so confused. As for your previous post, in Islam we are meant to follow the Prophet pbuh, and you know what he said about marriage, I pray that you do whats right, because in the end this is about you and your relationship with Allah. I guess in the end you just have to ask yourself the question, “what if I died tomorrow?”,well thats what works for me anyway.
salam